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New Year, New Everything: You are the Renewable Energy

At the beginning of each new year I’ve always held the belief the coming year would be the best yet. Fortunately this mindset has come true time and time again. It’s inspiring to feel whats next will be your greatest work.

As I revel in the beauty of the moment, I remember the words of my good man Dan “Weekday Berg” Steinfeld on experiencing life. Remember not to always anticipate and plot what comes next, but enjoy and embrace each moment as you go through it. Sounds very familiar to concepts my brother had touched on numerous times over the years.

Even some time ago when I first heard Dan mention this approach to living, I can remember the subject of washing dishes. If you rush through it thinking about what you need to do next, you really aren’t doing what you’re doing very well. Your mind is constantly considering whats next and ignores the present.

Taking a step back to ponder where I am in the present led me back to my old pal bnapoli.com.  This website has always helped me understand where my head is at. Later I can come back and read how I was feeling, understand where I was and make note of my progress (or lack thereof) since.

Though its intimidating that people I know and some I’ve never even met will read my innermost thoughts and ideas, it’s also an inspirational artistic release that brings me freedom.

Seems you’ll never completely know everything there is to know about many people in your life. With certain people you might never get into a conversation about existence and what goes on when you question elements of your reality.  There isn’t always a favorable environment to share these things, so your thoughts are left inside your mind to kick around.  In this case I do my best to document them for anyone to see, which ultimately leads me into those conversations down the line.

I write to learn, and sometimes when you discover something new you just want to yell it from the rooftops. This is my rooftop and it broadcasts on all vibrations, I can yell much louder from here.

2012: Embrace the present, progress every day, prepare for what’s next but enjoy the now.

The cumulative effect of moving an inch a day for 30 years is far greater than moving several feet at a time once in a while. – Dad

 

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I Can’t Hide From This One

Miami, Florida

Throughout my life and in all the blog posts I’ve ever written I’ve always been very heavy on the importance of introspective thought, analyzing myself and learning lessons from the knowledge I have within. I’ve found comfort in solidarity with my thoughts because I figured at the end of the day the only one who had to deal with my decisions was me.

Unfortunately, throughout this journey I feel I’ve slightly neglected the importance of peer review and the honest opinions of those that I love.  Criticism is tough to hear, but totally necessary to personal growth and self-improvement.  I’ve always been defensive about what people say to me, which I’m sure is no shock to anybody who really knows who I am. I constantly take a position of defense under the notion that I’m being attacked.  I’ve dismissed the opinions of others in certain situations by convincing myself it didn’t matter what somebody had to say about me so long as I was happy with my own decisions.

Though I agree that living your life to please others is severely wrong, I’ve failed to properly acknowledge the undeniable importance of criticism, peer analysis and honesty.  I’ve failed to realize that it wasn’t easy for my friends and family to tell me the honest truth, knowing I would react this way.  I feel that in certain situations I’ve made others less likely to tell me what they really think because they fear I’ll immediately take on the defensive.

It’s tough for me to write about this, especially since I’m basically proclaiming my own miscalculation and error in judgment. However, this is a liberating process. It would be one thing if I realized this but did nothing about it. It’s a whole other experience to broadcast my imperfections to anybody that can spell my name and has heard of Google. (This website has been the #1 result for a “Brett Napoli” Google Search for the past 8 years)

I’ve always been very open with my thoughts and feelings and felt that I’ve never had anything to hide. I’ve known there will always be haters, there will always be people talking shit and there will always be people making fun of one another.  For this reason, I put myself out there and expect to be ridiculed.  I understand that its much easier to insult somebody that opens up and presents the opportunity to be analyzed in a public forum.  Yet, I would rather be open, free and happy than try to hide from every insult.  I would rather plaster my true opinions up for the world to see so I can convince myself this is something I can not hide from.

Just like you, I’m not perfect and I don’t pretend to be.  When people read this, they could believe that I had this motive or that. They could laugh at how foolish I am to write about my faults. Others will quietly acknowledge my honesty and realize how difficult it is for somebody to be so open with their own shortcomings.

For this reason, I make this 3am post not out of haste, but as a recognition that what I truly feel needs to be documented. When I wake up tomorrow, I won’t read this and wish I never wrote it. I won’t quietly delete it from my website and hope nobody had a chance to see it. I will be honest with myself, acknowledge where I’ve been wrong and use this moment of clarity as an indication of growth. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life and I encourage all of you to feel the same way.

To those that have been honest with me, shared their love and experiences with me I am forever indebted. Love is omnipotent. Friendship lasts a lifetime. Family is forever. To those I’ve shared the journey with, I love you. To those I’m yet to find, I’m excited to meet you. I’m not too sure what is next, all I really know is it will work out for the best.